07.03.08

Once a Year

Posted in Personal at 23:43 by Laura

Thanks for letting me know y’all are still out there… and listening.

About 7 years ago, I started my blog as a place to let out my demons. Over time, I’ve pulled those bits of me back into the closet… and packed them away for safe-keeping… noticeable only by the password protection on that portion of my site.

It is once again that time of year… 14 years later… and I recently had someone (whom I have known most of my life) tell me to move on and “get over it”. I’m hear to say this… you never get over it… you only learn to cope with it.

This will probably be the one and only time I talk openly about this without locking this entry…

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07.01.08

It’s a Bird, It’s a Plane, It’s a… Virus

Posted in Complaint, Daily Life at 21:01 by Laura

Every time I log into WP… my anti-virus pops up saying it’s blocked a virus. And sometimes, I get redirected to a non-english page. I’m really not sure what’s going on. On top of that, I don’t think anyone even sees my most recent post, because I keep getting comments on the previous post.

So, the big question is… can you hear me now?

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06.24.08

Mood Swings

Posted in Personal at 15:25 by Laura

I wish someone had warned me that when I turned 30, mood swings were going to increase and become far more severe. Personally, I like to blame it on turning 30, but God knows what’s causing it. All I know is I have some serious mood swings now that involve often deep hatred toward anyone with a penis. So, my guess is… it’s a hormonal thing. Who the hell knows… but, it’s seriously messing me up. I feel like I’m falling apart, yet I don’t know why!! It’s like this deep-seeded distrust and anger toward men just overpowers me at times… like now…

I really don’t enjoy being like this and I wish I knew what was causing it. Like I said, I prefer to blame it on getting older, however I’m sure there is a more likely reason.

And to all my male readers… you do NOT have to run and hide… I promise.

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06.16.08

Still Out There

Posted in Personal at 20:29 by Laura

So, I often wonder if I have any devoted readers left. I know that’s due to my sporadic posts… or better said… lack of updating. Yet, I still hope that a few of you are left. There have been so many with whom I’ve shared this blog with for so many years… and some of them go as far back as when this site began!! (Now, that’s a scary thought.) And I thank those of you who have stuck by my random weeks of disappearance.

Lately, I’ve been trying to accept a lot of changes in my life. My husband is deployed… I’m done with school (and still haven’t quite figured out how I managed 4 yrs of school when I never seem to have a moment to breathe)… desperately searching the job market (with no apparent success)… and addressing some medical issues.

Last week, I had a medical procedure done that I was told would only be mildly uncomfortable. Someone lied to me. It was one of the MOST painful experiences I have ever been through… and not one I care to go through again… however, will probably have to. I hesitate in discussing it much further, yet on the same token… there is a certain level of anonymity that would allow me to do so. As you may have noticed, I’ve eliminated much of my sidebar content as I think I would prefer to let any new readers know me for my words only.

When my husband and I first married, I showed him this site. And I know that, to this day, he checks it periodically. While I love him dearly, I regret the decision to allow him access to these pages. It has nothing to do with what I write and everything to do with no longer feeling as though I can diary my life. As if one wrong sentence could possibly start an arguement (and it has in the past). Now and again, I contemplate a new beginning, but then… this site is who I am… it is me… every aspect of it. I think maybe I just need to renew myself within it… hopefully I still have readers out there…

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06.11.08

Traded Up

Posted in Daily Life at 21:53 by Laura

Well, I finally did it… I traded in my 2006 Katana 600 for a 2008 GSX-R 600!! It’s not even in my garage yet… it’s still in a crate in Long Beach!! It’ll be delivered to the shop tonight/tomorrow… built tomorrow… and delivered to my door Friday morning… never to even touch the showroom floor! Now, THAT is what I call BRAND SPANKING NEW!! LOL I’m so stoked!!! I’ll post pics once I get it… but, this is what it’ll look like…

GSX-R 600